Self sabotage

We don’t think much about self-talk, but it’s literally the foundation for our lives. Many of us think life just happens and the earth is static. It’s not — your life is a sum total of beliefs, thoughts, and words. Months ago, when I caught this revelation, I was diligent about changing my image, how I spoke to myself, and my thoughts. Then, slowly but surely, the cares of life poured in, and I began to revert back to that old comfort zone of doubt and defeat.

At first, the pity parties were brief. I would think of a situation and then take the role of victim. Then someone would come into the salon and tell me a problem, and I would listen and maybe add a piece of my current problem to identify. That was all it took! With just those couple of things, I forgot who I was and was sucked back into self-defeating conversation and negative self-talk. I learned firsthand that the mind truly is the battlefield (2 Corinthians 10:4-5). I realized immediately that we MUST be diligent about our thoughts and words (Proverbs 4:23; Matthew 12:37). My comfort zone was lack and struggle, so my mind wanted to make me comfortable. Don’t be like me. Conquer this area early on, and you’ll live in victory.

As soon as an ugly thought pops up, CAST IT DOWN. This is what the scripture means when it says to cast down every vain and wicked imagination (2 Corinthians 10:5). My thoughts were vain. They were all about me. I hadn’t added the power of God or the covenant to the situation. I was supposed to put on the mind of Christ (Philippians 2:5) and call things that be not as though they were! (Romans 4:17) I was supposed to decree a thing and watch it be established! (Job 22:28) I was supposed to think on these things — whatsoever was pure and lovely and of a good report (Philippians 4:8). I was supposed to believe that I received the thing BEFORE I prayed! (Mark 11:24) I was supposed to meditate on the promise day and night! (Joshua 1:8) I was supposed to be seated with Him and pray from that paradigm! (Ephesians 2:6) I was supposed to come from a place of authority! I am a child of God — not some beggar or slave with no covenant! (Romans 8:16-17; Galatians 4:7)

Now… all I have to do is renew my mind to agree with what He has said concerning me (Romans 12:2).

No more negative self-talk.

No more thoughts of defeat or “what if.”

No more conforming to the thoughts and patterns of this world. (Romans 12:2)